Nobody Told Me How Painful It Would Be Transforming Into My Best Self.
Updated: Apr 1, 2020
We are becoming a new version of ourself. We are growing and learning. Nobody ever told me that transformation would be the hardest thing I have ever done. We are leaving our old self behind and it's not a comfortable feeling to experience. It's extremely painful. I'm being positive through this experience, or at least I'm trying to, but we have to embrace our sadness and feelings of being uncomfortable. That's all part of learning too. Transformation is the most beautiful thing we can experience but it's also the most painful thing at the same time. It's not something that can happen overnight. I've set intentions for myself and the very next day I expect I'm going to be this new person. What I'm learning is that it's not the case at all. It takes time, patience, dedication, determination, focus, and strength. There is so much that comes with transformation. We have to realize that it's a process. The timing is going to be different for everyone, but know that it takes time. The caterpillar doesn't go into the cocoon and come out the very next day as a butterfly. There is a quiet period of evolution that occurs. We have to nurture our selves during this time of transformation. If we don't, we run the risk of going back to old habits and patterns. We fall into old cycles that did not serve us before and sure as hell are not going to serve us now. We must be cognizant and aware of how we are reacting to the present changes. There will be days where we slip up. It's totally going to happen and it's normal. As much as we will want to beat ourselves up about it, we need to remember that it's something we never want to do again. We did it because we were triggered. Take a moment to think about it. Is that really the way we want to react? Take these slip-ups as an extra credit assignment. The universe will continue presenting these tests to us until we get it. It feels like such an awful thing but if we cannot react in a positive and constructive way then we are not living in alignment with this new truth and new life. It's something we need to focus and work on. We will get there. We just need to be patient with ourselves and know that it's going to take time. Every day we are growing and learning. We are transforming into a better version of ourself. We are becoming our best self and that is a beautiful thing.