"Procrastination is the thief of time." - Kirpal Singh
Procrastination has been with me for as long as I can remember. Even from a young age and through all my years in school I put off assignments until the last minute. Sometimes I failed to complete them. You would think after all that I would better manage my time. The awareness was definitely there. I knew very well what I was doing (wasting time) and not doing (getting shit done). Even today I procrastinate. And you know what? I hate it. It’s an awful way to live and because I realize what I'm doing it makes me more frustrated with myself. I think of all things I want to accomplish during the day and when given the time to do them, I waste it. Once the day turns into night and I haven't done what I set out to do I try to cram it all in. I very well know that it could have been complete if only I hadn’t wasted time perusing through Instagram or checking my email. Who’s emailing me at 9 pm anyway?
The question is, why do I procrastinate? Why do any of us? Laziness is the most obvious, but fear is the silent but oh so giant factor. Especially when it comes to dreams or goals we set for ourselves that stem from our higher self. It’s the little voice inside that gives us the hints and ideas to align to our soul purpose. It all plays out so perfectly in our minds but that alone isn’t going to manifest what we desire. We have to take the steps to get there. The universe will open doors for us but we have to get off our asses and get moving to find them and walk through. We need to learn to put fear aside because fear is really what is holding us back. By putting ourselves out there we become vulnerable fearing failure and judgment from others. It becomes easier to hide behind laziness because then we have nothing to show. But by not taking action, we feel that failure and judgment from within. Take a moment to think about which one is worse. Would you rather take someone else’s negative comment with a grain of salt while you’re allowing your awesome and unique self to shine, or keep your light dimmed while feeling unfulfilled because you’ve put off what you want to do in life? We are our own best friend. We have to live with ourselves and the choices we make. If we know deep down we aren’t fulfilling our purpose we aren't going to like ourselves very much. I don't want to live like that anymore. Do you? Yesterday morning as I was moseying around my room before heading out for the day, that little voice told me, “Stop dicking around! Get your shit together!” I took that as a cue to assess my time management. It’s been pretty awful. I have a head full of ideas that I want to put forth but it’s been the fear that’s held me back. If I fail, I fail. What truly matters is that I’m trying. If I don’t, I will never know what the outcome could be. It's time to put procrastination on the back burner and use the open flame to ignite the fire within us.