The summer following my high school graduation I took a job working in the supplement department of my local health food store. I was intrigued and amazed by all the information I was quickly learning. I'd grown up taking over-the-counter medication and sometimes antibiotics anytime I got sick. Being in this new environment opened my eyes to a natural way of treating bodily ails and illness. By taking natural supplements and modifying her diet, my mom was able to get off of statins for high cholesterol and has been able to keep her blood pressure at a healthy level.
Of all the books I studied, I was fascinated with the book, Heal Your Life, by Louise Hay. It lists a multitude of health problems and the emotions that can cause/exacerbate them. I know that my health issues have a lot to do with the stress, anxiety, and past experiences that I can't let go of. The first time I went to see an acupuncturist she had me stick out my tongue. She was shocked and said "I have never seen a tongue like yours and that you have way too much heat in your heart for a person of your age." At the end of our session she suggested that when I go to sleep at night I focus on things that make me happy. It was as if she knew that I lay awake at night going over all the negative, hurtful, and painful experiences that happened in my life. A marathon playing until I finally fell asleep. Below I've listed a few topics from Heal Your Life. As I looked them over again, it rang true to me that our emotional health very much impacts our physical health. I've been able to connect with many IC women through Instagram and others with varying chronic illnesses. Also, from blog posts I've come across, there seems to be a common theme. Hanging onto past emotions, negative relationships with food, and having a difficult time expressing oneself were the three that stood out to me the most. Maybe because I could relate to them all. Below I've listed a few health conditions from Hay's Heal Your Life. They include the causes as well as positive affirmations. I've been repeating the bladder affirmation in my head at night before I go to sleep.
BLADDER PROBLEMS: Anxiety. Holding on to old ideas. Fear of letting go. Being pissed off.
Affirmation: I comfortably & easily release the old & welcome the new in my life. I am safe.
PAIN: Self punishment, feeling emotional guilt.
Affirmation: I lovingly release the past. They are free and I am free. All is well in my heart now.
ENDOMETRIOSIS: Disappointment and frustration. Replacing self love with sugar. Blaming others.
Affirmation: I am both powerful and desirable. It's wonderful to be a woman. I love myself and am fulfilled.
Monday's are my Saturday so I was able to sleep in this morning if you count 6am sleeping in. The sleep cycle of a baker. Anyways, I got up and did my workout first thing followed by my physical therapy stretches and some yoga. I ended my practice with a heart opener and shavasana. I've always loved this part of my practice as I feel my body and mind being restored. My ego is silent and I can fully connect with myself on a deep meditative level. I find the more times I get myself to this place the more insight I have to heal and let go of what has been holding me back. Below is what came from my meditation this morning.
Disconnect with everything else and connect with yourself. That is when you allow your mind to be open to the channel of your higher power. In the stillness you can focus your energy on you and your healing. We always try and DO for others. It's time we DO for ourselves. Our health has been compromised in such a way that we can't fully live our lives. We have a right to live it how we want. We create the changes and enforce them. Yes, there are unforeseen circumstances that occur but it's how we deal with them. How we handle stress, relationships, personal struggles, etc. We need to break the vicious cycle of how our minds work. Just like reprogramming our habits we must reprogram our minds. We need to be nurturing in our thoughts and actions. We need to let go of what no longer works for us and welcome what does.